Over 4 years ago I started using weight watchers to lose weight and it seems like ever since, I have struggled to keep it off. I've done weight watchers several times and it works. I just fall off the wagon and give up.
I have let stress rule over me and dictate my food decisions. I know it's not the right thing to do. I know it at the time, but it doesn't stop me.
When I lost my job in March, I lost about 5 pounds because I wasn't stressed and wasn't eating out of anger or annoyance anymore. It was awesome. Then I took on this new position, and got comfy, and stopped thinking about what I was eating once again. This time it's not out of stress or anger, but out of boredom and fear of the unknown since this is, afterall, a temp job. (it could turn permanent after about 8 months, but who wants to temp for 8 months?!) I've also been stressed about all these opportunities in Atlanta and juggling it all.
I know these are all excuses. It's old ways and I hate to say it, but I can't help it. It's like a sickness. I am having to retrain my brain to think different about food. It's very hard to do.
Last Friday, 6/15/12, I stepped on the scale and it said 219.4. It has taken a long time for me to be honest and tell people how much I weigh, but I am comfortable in my skin and have no qualms with admitting this. So that number...219.4... it doesn't make me happy at all. It's almost 220. My highest weight ever was 226 and that's not a good thing. I can't get back there.
I am now using MyFitnessPal to track my food and exercise. I have been a member of that site for over 2 years, but I am now finding myself getting more involved. I am posting on the forums there and seeking advice and motivation from others. They might be total strangers, but we are all fighting the same fight. So far it is helping me tremendously.
Since last Friday, I have lost almost 4 pounds. I know it's water weight, but it's a start. I am now at 215.8.
I shake my head when I think about how I got to 155 about 8 years ago and how I let emotions get the best of me. Emotions are a strong thing, but this time I am determined to work through them and keep the weight off.
ps- still no word yet, but I'm hopeful on the job front. 1 more, possibly 2 more interviews on this Friday in Atlanta. Whew, this is exhausting.
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
Thursday, June 14, 2012
Patience
Patience is something I was never really granted. Well, I was with other people, but when it comes to things I want, I can't stand it... I want it now now now.
...and that hasn't changed at all in my job quest.
I am really dying to find out about that job. The 2nd interview went well. They brought me in "just to make sure it's something I'm interested in."
I called today to see if they had made a decision and the response I got was... "Yes, we are just waiting on Finance to approve it and we will be in touch. If you find another opportunity, please let me know so I can put a fire under finance to get it approved."
So yeah, I gotta wait.... and wait.... and wait a little more. I'm telling you...this is excrutiating. It seems promising, but I'm really trying not to get my hopes up before I hear anything official.
In other news, to all my readers out there, do yourself a favor and search for houses under $100k in Marietta, GA on http://www.trulia.com/ and see why I want to move there so bad. Look what I can get for practically NOTHING!!
...and that hasn't changed at all in my job quest.
I am really dying to find out about that job. The 2nd interview went well. They brought me in "just to make sure it's something I'm interested in."
I called today to see if they had made a decision and the response I got was... "Yes, we are just waiting on Finance to approve it and we will be in touch. If you find another opportunity, please let me know so I can put a fire under finance to get it approved."
So yeah, I gotta wait.... and wait.... and wait a little more. I'm telling you...this is excrutiating. It seems promising, but I'm really trying not to get my hopes up before I hear anything official.
In other news, to all my readers out there, do yourself a favor and search for houses under $100k in Marietta, GA on http://www.trulia.com/ and see why I want to move there so bad. Look what I can get for practically NOTHING!!
Tuesday, June 5, 2012
New beginnings
As I type this, I am getting ready to go to a 2nd interview with a pretty big ad agency out of Atlanta in a couple of days. This is a huge thing for me and could possibly mean that things are going to become REALLY crazy in my life. As I like to say, Shit is about to get REAL.
Things that I will have to do:
pack, pack, pack
repair a few things here and there on my house
sell or rent (most likely rent since I prefer to not lose money)
and that's about it.... I think.
Of course I'll have all of the usual goodbyes to say. There's a lot of things that I have to get rid of, which can be a chore for me sometimes since I don't like getting rid of lots. Then there is the whole finding another house in Atlanta, which I think will be fun. We can get A LOT of house for little money there, so I'm excited to get out of my matchbox of a house.
Not much else to say except that my life is nuts right now and I can't wait to see what the future holds.
Things that I will have to do:
pack, pack, pack
repair a few things here and there on my house
sell or rent (most likely rent since I prefer to not lose money)
and that's about it.... I think.
Of course I'll have all of the usual goodbyes to say. There's a lot of things that I have to get rid of, which can be a chore for me sometimes since I don't like getting rid of lots. Then there is the whole finding another house in Atlanta, which I think will be fun. We can get A LOT of house for little money there, so I'm excited to get out of my matchbox of a house.
Not much else to say except that my life is nuts right now and I can't wait to see what the future holds.
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