life

Life is hard, man.

Things are going ok here in Atlanta.  I'm making decent money and the job isn't unbearable, I've almost got my house rented out, and I'm feeling a lot better lately.

I'm just...stressed.  I feel that through life, god is always throwing you off that path of stability.  Not out of spite, but just to make you a stronger person. 

I am not one to ask for prayers because... well, that's not my thing.  But I do need something of that sort sent my way.  There has been some somewhat terrifying health issues that have come up with someone I really love, and although they say it's ok, everything has been caught in time to reverse any damages, I am scared.  Like, really really scared.

I'd go into more detail, but out of respect for privacy and all that, I just don't wanna put it on my blog.

I will say that it makes me really want to emphasize how important it is to take care of yourself.  I'm not good at doing that, but I gotta get on board.  I've been much more aware of my own health issues the last couple of months, and now I have to make it my primary focus.

learning to breathe

Know how in my last couple posts I complained about feeling like crap?  I have a double ear infection.  It's been pretty miserable.  Also while I was at the doctor, they were freaked out by my blood pressure.  I'm embarassed so I won't publish the # here, but let's just say, I was 1 point away from being sent to the ER by the minute clinic.  So they called to follow up about my blood pressure and convinced me to go back on my blood pressure meds.  I really hate it, but I also don't want to have a stroke at 30.

In my defense though, my blood pressure is going to be high when:
1. I was just in rush hour traffic for 2 hours before making to the Minute Clinic (eff you Atlanta rush hour!)
2. I had 2 ear infections.  Can I even tell you how miserable that is?  I thought I was going to throw up in traffic.
3. I am in a new city, with no friends, a new job where I feel completely lost, and I feel homeless because I am living in a temp situation.  ahhhhhhhh

got any tips on stress relief?  I could use them.

observations

Just things I am observing...

I work with a middle aged lady that is obsessed with this singer named Duffy.  I remember her from a few years back and she got a lot of hype, but she sure isn't an Adele.  It kinda makes me laugh.

My cubicle mate is very over the top.  She is always laying the smack down on her husband and slamming the phone down as she screams "Gah!!  Idiot!"  She also insists that I only need a 3 bedroom house and can't understand why one of my requirements is a basement.  She also said if that house that I wanted to put the offer on, was THE house, I would have done it anyways.  Yeah, cause I want to commit financial suicide.

Whew, thanks for the advice!

Would anyone else like to put their nose where it doesn't belong?  It seems a lot of people think they can do that to me these days.  From my grandma ruining the surprise of my life to H's parents trying to tell us we need to live in the Suburbs and  not in the "hip" areas.... I think I'm gonna scream.

Anyways, the minute clinic doesn't know it yet, but we have a date at 5pm.  achoooooo!!